New life v2.0

My life is not as dark and haunted as it used to be, which was my primary muse and makes for the most interesting and entertaining read. If you are reading this, you have either read, or will read what I have written, and do/will understand what I am talking about. There is a lot more to talk about when you have issues as opposed to when you have gotten over most of them and have learned how to cope with the day-to-days of life.

Life is not without issue, so I will carry forward to what is present.

When I started, it was around 5 years ago to help me deal with the stress of the then current situation and to help me cope with my then current and past demons. A lot has changed since then, and I suppose this says a lot about the maturing process... in the sense that you are more comfortable with the decisions you have made because they can be more thought out than those prior decisions in life, usually because you have dealt with a similar situation before, or because you have chosen to be ignorant due to a variety of reasons. Too many to list here.

Or worse... you realize that, after the fact, one or both of your parents was right. Moving on...

Life goes on and if you are lucky, someone will have written your memoirs so that you have something to document your life and the future generations can learn from your ways, or if you are really lucky, you have children to pass on what they believe to be the most lasting impression that no memoir could document, living proof through their actions.

It's been a while, gentle reader, and reading some of the past posts brings up fond and difficult memories, reminds me of past friends and those still around, it makes me appreciate where I have come to be, and brings the realization that there is so much potential for a great future that it makes me sick. Excuse me while I throw up.

...Better now, thanks.

Maturing is a difficult thing to deal with at best. In my experience I have learned that I would have slapped myself into making proper decisions as I see it now, but I wouldn't have learned through my mistakes nor have established the relations I have with those around me now had I thrown a finishing uppercut at my formal self.

Life is not easy and continues to prove it's challenges, but it seems that in the end, the fight is worth what is to come, if you choose it to be. It really depends on the now and future because no-one is going to come around to set you straight until it is past.

Read the fine print.

Someone tell me what to write.
That’s a bad idea. I’ll probably write that instead of what I want to.

Continue on, gentle reader, and this may make some sense.

Time to have some fun with a contract!
Sign at your own discretion.

I did so, but I didn’t pay heed to the fine print.

You will furthermore hold title as a Customer Service Representative. You will pledge your life to the field above and provide the highest level of customer satisfaction possible.*

• You will have well developed interpersonal and communication skills.
• You will be able to present information and ideas in simple, easy to understand terms on an individual basis or in large group settings.
• You will be able to complete tasks with minimal supervision and minimal error.
• You will excel at establishing rapport with clients ensuring continued business and be able to further develop customer base.
• You will have multitasking, prioritizing, and problem solving skills.
• You will be highly motivated with a mature disposition and positive demeanor.**
  

*Your performance will not be affected by personal thought or emotion. You will perform all duties required of you and you will listen and act on any request stated by either your superior or fellow subordinate even if the inconvenience is great and affects you personally in any form. Any “stirring of the pot” or any attempt to change established guidelines is strictly prohibited. By agreeing to this contract, any breach in said established methods of conduct will be punishable. Any discipline enforced will be taken in stride regardless of personal opinion, so that your superior(s) may feel as their title deems them, superior.

If ever given the opportunity to be in a superior position, you are allowed to reap the benefits and utilize the dominant role to your benefit so long as it does not affect your superiors in a negative fashion. If the latter situation arises, serious punishment may result. As a result, you are required to take similar if not more serious action on your subordinates. Privileges will be revoked if said action is not prevalent and acknowledged.

You will not receive pay more than double the minimum wage, ever, and the latter circumstance is only allocated to those titled as “Life-Time CSR’s,” but this is not, nor will ever be, guaranteed.

You will take direction and rely on it heavily. You will act hastily and without any regard to future consequence because you will deliver service immediately to make the other party completely and utterly satisfied, to ensure repeat business.

By signing this contract, you forfeit any privilege; and sense of self-choice. You will make choices based on how your actions affect those around you, but not including yourself.

By signing this contract, you agree the above mentioned will not be limited to the workplace, but will extend to your personal affairs and approach to life. You will be affected in ways that are unable to be foreseen and you will never know as to why you are the way you are until you write about it on blogger.com. Even with the latter stated, you will never completely understand the full impact this contract will have on you.

**Taken from my own resume. All material seen above is copywrited by this author and any recreation or use or manipulation without my written permission and consent is prohibited under my own martial law.

For this contract to be valid, you must sign and date in blood below.

Hello 26.

The time in your life where you still feel like you’re 20, but feel a pending remorse for 30.

It’s the time where more responsibility is prevalent.

The possibility or thought of marriage, children, a house, and/or a major career move could be occupying your daily thoughts.

Where your friends have been established to some degree and the frequency in that you see them either stays the same or decreases a bit, but you are able to pick up the conversation from the point you left off at regardless of the time spent away.

You start to notice that yelling at the news on T.V. makes you feel better about any global concern.

When your old injuries and fresh ones make themselves known a little more frequently and take a little longer to go away.

It’s where you look at yourself in the mirror and imagine this is how your body will be for the next 25 years unless you take some initiative to change it, depending on how motivated you feel in the next 3 weeks.

Something that is guaranteed from the aging process is that your ears and nose will be bigger with a sudden appearance of more hair in both. Not to mention the fact that you’ll find your pants start making their way to your armpits.

If you have identified with any of these thoughts, gentle reader, it pleases me to know this because then I am not the only one having them.

I feel consumed by responsibility. It has taken over my daily thoughts. It is planning my next 30 years without any regard to what I have to say.

From going to a care-free environment with nothing to worry about except the next social event and paying off the Mastercard balances from the very same social events, to having a two-bedroom house with a dependant under the roof and 2 jobs that barely cover all expenses.

~Phew. I can’t write like I used to. I need a nap.~

~It’s not all bad though. There is some good. All rested up, this author shall continue.~

An appreciation for all the little things taken for granted begins to blossom.

There is a certain understanding and respect of what the parents used to say as the “right thing to do because we’ve done it.” Now you may either agree or disagree with this statement, but it cannot be denied. How you are told to do something by someone your elder will be taken differently, but no matter the situation, one will be told of the negative side of one’s actions.

Several scenarios have come up where no matter of opinion matters, and many more will, has caught this author pausing for moments finally before finally stuttering out the words…

ah, now I understand...

The appreciation for what you have and will acquire increases. With any responsibility where you have put time and sweat into action, the rewards are enjoyed on a completely different level. Also included in this is leisure time. When you have much on your plate and feel like you are required to be busy, the time you have to do nothing or something you want to for your own pleasure is precious and ought not to be taken for granted.

As I am writing it may seem as though I have just chanced upon this knowledge like a metal detector does on buried keys, but it has come from circumstance. In the time frame of less than a day, the care-free lifestyle is replaced by responsibility.

As my hair continues to gray and my teeth stain from excessive consumption of coffee and cigarettes, I say good-bye to the care-free days and good-day to responsibility laden freedom.

Happy 26^th... Welcome to reality!

Finally, this author has an appreciation. It is you gentle reader. I have received a few emails saying that, even after a year of abstaining from writing, they were checking to see if any new postings were added.

To my faithful, I thank you.

Been a while no?

Keep posted gentle reader. I have re-emerged. It turns out I have missed my writing to you.